a lifetime

I didn’t know you very long

But I’ve known you forever

Or am I wrong?

maybe I never did

Those young blurry months were a lifetime

Six years or six centuries later and 

love that was once

Is again

And still 

And never again

And always

And never was.

I’ve loved before

And between

And again after

And never stopping.

You and him

Just him

Always you

I forgot him

He was gone

Still you

It used to be harder

It isn’t anymore.

The truth has turned against me

And with reality

he is a slippery friend

He whispers sweet lies

Spinning memories

Into your heart’s wildest dreams

That you were real

Were you?

Are you?

It must have been a dream

And then you return

I am in a storm

Your voice in my head 

never went away

You were always there

Drowning in my moving on

My healing

My falling in love again

Who you are is not who I knew

And yet I know you by heart

In another life

In this one

I’ve known you forever

And you were the old story

The frozen clock

A last goodbye

In the rain on the docks

You were the whom to which I wrote

But the words that were

 Have since gone up in smoke