there is no rest

in

I couldn’t sleep last night

But who can anymore?

The times are dark

And there is no rest

They would probably diagnose me

With anxiety

I should call my doctor

I think I owe him money

Speaking of which

I should call about insurance

I should go before i quit

My job, oh wait

Did I ever send that email?

God I want to quit

But not before I call about insurance

They called me last week

The unknown number gave me anxiety

They would probably diagnose me 

With insomnia

I hardly sleep

One thought leads me to

Another and another and

The sun is rising

Or would that be anxiety?

I would ask but

I can’t afford the answer

They would probably diagnose me

With depression

Even now, I feel a little sad

But at least i’m awake

 when i’m supposed to be

The thoughts are hushed 

By the crashing of a wave 

onto the shore

And a second

And another and another and

The crashing sounds like peace

And simpler times

The seagulls squeal lazily today

Even they are at ease

Bobbing in and above leniant waves

It’s summer in New York

And maybe i’m depressed

But today is cool and grey

Maybe the peace will give me rest